Day Tripper

So, I want school to be over now. I'm so over it. Unfortunately, when school ends I have to start paying off my student loans which I'm not too stoked about. I kind of like school though in a way because it keeps me grounded y'know? What would I be doing if I wasn't in school? Probably fucking around, drinking and doing drugs every night which isn't cool. This winter break though, was pretty much one of the best winter breaks I've ever had.

My winter break consisted of lots sex, drugs and rock 'n roll. For real. And lots of lounging around and hanging out with family and friends. Haha. It was so fun though and I just want to rewind. Why can't we just rewind?

Anyways, I've been thinking about myself and my love life a lot lately. Even though I wasn't too stoked about being tied down, it feels kind of nice you know? Someone there to cuddle with and talk to and just generally hang out with.... Every guy I seem to meet though has been a douchebag. Yu and I were talking about that yesterday and she agreed. So I decided something, if the next few guys I meet and date are douchebags, I'm swearing off men forever.

Yu #2 is leaving for Japan in two days. I am kind of sad because now who am I going to go to shows with? The last show we went together was Soulwax all the way in October. We did E (him for the first time) and had some fun times. Now he is leaving and I am sad. Now who will I go to shows with? Haha. Oh well, I'm meeting him for some tea tomorrow so at least I get to see him before I never get to see him again. Haha.

I am supposed to go to court on Thursday... maybe. I think? I wrote a written reasons report but didn't send it in until 4 weeks ago and still haven't got a reply... mind you I haven't been home in two days... but I doubt it will come! I don't want to go to court!! I'm scared and if the cop who gave me the ticket shows up I have to pay! Stupid me. Don't drink on the skytrain kids.

I need to start eating less but seriously, when I'm stressed I eat and eat and eat. What do I have to be stressed out about? Lots. I stress out about myself and other people. I really need to stop that.

- m.